Last night I got an email of apology from Lisa Warren. She said she didn't dream that I would be upset or that anyone else would be. Not true, I thought immediately --not only did she dream that I might be upset but she told my best friend that she wasn't going to tell me for that reason. So exactly why did she put it on FB! I have no idea. It doesn't matter why. It does matter that she did it for any reason.
I have not acknowledged the apology. You should get some points for any apology but those words or so easy to say. It was no hurt to her--Bill Stacy did not tear up a lifetime of her work, and effort. She never went without enough food so that he could have everything he wanted--golf membership when he was in grad school. She is not the one who has put up with 20 years of people coming up to tell me that they had run into him....knowing that I have been thru a living hell. He never aimed any lies at her or tried to ruin her in any way. She did not bear and rear his children. It is so easy to forgive and forget if you really don't have anything to forgive and if his only crimes have been against another person in your family. My mother sure never forgave him until the day of her death. She did hope that she never ran into him or that he never would darken her door...because she would not receive him, and she told me that on a number of occasions. I don't know what to say to her after her easy apology because she does't seem to realize what pain she caused. I wish the pain were as easy as her apology.
So I press on as I have for 20 years picking up the shattered pieces of my life. God always provides for me. Greg Brune, my friend of many years, called me before all of this happened yesterday afternoon, and he said he'd pick me up for the Coaches luncheon. I went out and visited with pals who would not dare to mention the name of Bill Stacy if he were standing in their midst and felt the safety of the situation. I enjoyed the visit, threw back my head and laughed, met the new basketball coach and took part in the radio show. The only thing that was on their mind was politics, the possibility of my being appointed to the Regent's position, divorces--Brad Bedell, Morley Swingle, what gossip. Margaret Ford and Jerry came in--she has cancer of the bladder and will have an operation in January. So, I put all the Lisa business on hold --and go on with what is good in my life.
I have not acknowledged the apology. You should get some points for any apology but those words or so easy to say. It was no hurt to her--Bill Stacy did not tear up a lifetime of her work, and effort. She never went without enough food so that he could have everything he wanted--golf membership when he was in grad school. She is not the one who has put up with 20 years of people coming up to tell me that they had run into him....knowing that I have been thru a living hell. He never aimed any lies at her or tried to ruin her in any way. She did not bear and rear his children. It is so easy to forgive and forget if you really don't have anything to forgive and if his only crimes have been against another person in your family. My mother sure never forgave him until the day of her death. She did hope that she never ran into him or that he never would darken her door...because she would not receive him, and she told me that on a number of occasions. I don't know what to say to her after her easy apology because she does't seem to realize what pain she caused. I wish the pain were as easy as her apology.
So I press on as I have for 20 years picking up the shattered pieces of my life. God always provides for me. Greg Brune, my friend of many years, called me before all of this happened yesterday afternoon, and he said he'd pick me up for the Coaches luncheon. I went out and visited with pals who would not dare to mention the name of Bill Stacy if he were standing in their midst and felt the safety of the situation. I enjoyed the visit, threw back my head and laughed, met the new basketball coach and took part in the radio show. The only thing that was on their mind was politics, the possibility of my being appointed to the Regent's position, divorces--Brad Bedell, Morley Swingle, what gossip. Margaret Ford and Jerry came in--she has cancer of the bladder and will have an operation in January. So, I put all the Lisa business on hold --and go on with what is good in my life.
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