Life comes crashing down on you October 1, 2010

Last night I went to bed after hearing about an identified man being shot in Charleston who got caught in the aftermath of a drug shooting. I looked at the car and saw the low license number and I immediately thought it had to be someone I knew. Worried about it half the night. Called Harriett and Betty Ann this morning and found out that low license number belonged to a deputy and it was no one we knew. In the process I visited with each of them.

I am really down. I am going to Sikeston today with Joan since she thinks I need to get out and away from this book and problems with my health. I have felt bad for weeks, I chalked it up to the flu bug I had but I have an infection which is going thru my body. I called Dr. Williams office this morning and she is sending me something out. I called my dentist office this morning and I am going in for xrays this afternoon. If there is anything, they are going to see me early Monday morning. I am afraid that it is another silent abscess which affects my physical and my mental. I am so upset about the Bailey visit, Betty Hearnes, my whole family --I wrote a note to Julia trying to tell her how terrible all of this is on all of us.

I talked to Betty Ann and Harriett this morning and told them about the note I wrote to Julia. They both agree that it is terrible about our family. Harriett says that Joker is driving Julia crazy and she talked to Jamee in the flower shop telling her that it is time for them to get full-time help no matter what the cost. She said that she sold her mother's farm to take care of getting help for her mother and that is what Julia needs to do now. Harriett says that if they go into a nursing home, they will take the farm anyway.

I just talked to Judy at Dr. Williams and they are calling in the medicine for the infection I have on my body. I have fooled with all this until I go to sleep hoping that I will be able to actually get some sleep. At least, I am doing something hoping to heal myself.